Stop Worrying

If you can turn off the voices in your head you can take control of  your thoughts and stop worrying.  For the most part a person who lets there thoughts run rapid usually worry all the time.     First I would ask, is there something I can do about the situation? If you can change your situation then change it, by all means  turn off the voices in your head. To stop worrying, think of something else.  When that thing that worried you  returns, think of something else less stressful. After a while of casting down the thoughts you will get control over your thoughts and stop worrying so much. These are just my views

Wishy Washy

Still working on intuitive eating and it's still hard to put everything into place.  I practice eating when hungry but find myself picking up old habits by trying to eat certain foods.  I still feel like certain foods put weight on you when intuitive  eating says other wise.  I started eating more meat and fruit and I actually lost the weight I had gained back.  I had not been making entries because the weight started to come back on.  When I eat more meat and fruit (even can fruit) I start dropping weight.  I am currently trying to lose 10 pounds.  I was on a candy binge for a while and started to gain,  but I decided I will not buy any more candy.  If it comes my way I may eat some but I will not buy any for one month.  I am down again but I want to lose more than 20 pounds in a year.  I am giving myself until March 2011 to see if I can lose at least 30lbs, if not I may consider the lap band. This has become my online diary. Yesterday was the office Christmas party and I ate only when hungry.  Intuitive eating does work because I only ate 1/2 a piece of cheese cake I had a desire for.  I guess I am entering the Crystallization Stage  of intuitive eating but I am still falling back to diet mode a bit
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Intuitive eating

I have read and have been trying intuitive eating since last october 2009.  I never thought of myself as having an eating disorder but I really fit the mold.  I thought I had the concept down but lately I am out of control again and gaining weight.  I still fall back because I don't seem to want to wait for hunger
 , at this point I can't figure out why.  I was on fire after reading the book and frustrated, happy, sad depressed.  I no longer have a thyroid problem so I know it is working  but not much evidence of weight loss lately.

Intuitive eating

I am really trying to make this intuitive eating work.  I keep trying to do what naturally thin people do.  Thin people don't question hunger, they just think of what they want to eat, then eat.  I on the other hand try to deny myself food when all I do is think about food.  On the way home from work, I thought, what will I have for dinner but in the back of my mind I told myself you couldn't possibly be hungry so I cracked open a small bag of cashews and finished them, then when I got home I at a Popeyes apple pie, then a 99 cent bag of cheetoes then of all things some healthy almonds.  I wondered why I just didn't make some dinner or even take out.  I think I have not let the diet mentally go yet .  Still trying intuitive.  This blog is for my personal escapade. I want to look back one day and see what I was putting myself through.  This blog has been such a healing thing for me.     

No more Hypothyroidism

This blog has become a personal journey.  I kept going up and down in my weight loss.  I like intuitive eating as a plan of weight loss but I am not losing weight fast enough. So I went back to square one, to the beginning.  At some point along the way  I picked up the diet rules again.  I started eating when it was time like early morning instead of when I was hungry. I my mind I went back to the thinking of I have got to get my metabolism going by eating breakfast.  When I started intuitive eating or thintuition I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism and now a year later after taking  medication and eating when hungry I no longer take the medication prescribed for hypothyroidism.
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Yum Yum Cinnabons

When I think of Cinnabon at the mall, I think of cheating on  a diet.  Cinnabon was always a no no in my mind because I have learned that certain foods make you fat.  With intuitive eating you learn to eat when hungry and stop when you are no longer hungry any more.  But when I walk up to the counter at the Cinnabon, there are always these very slender people buying not one but two cinnabons.  I asked how do you stay so slim eating those buns.  I get the,  "I don't know, I eat them all the time."  then I have to ask, are you eating it because your hunger and I get the most puzzling look but what people don't realize is, fat people eat because of any occasion and hunger has nothing to do with it eating. 

I love those Twist and they have a new way to serve the bun, in a cup with icing all over called Center of the roll.   It  is the best part of their Classic Roll - the ooey gooey middle.  they are bite sized pieces and topped with their signature cream cheese frosting.  they are available through January 15, 2011

Life changes

When I think of how much my life has changed in the last year, I get so teary eyed.  But I look in the mirror and there is not much change and then sadness comes over me.  Then I think it took 29 years to get to the size I am now and I've only been learning intuitive eating for a year.  I plan to figure it out because deep down I think it will really work.  I look at the biggest loser contestants and I learn a good deal about exercise but I really don't push myself.  I feel better than I have ever felt as a fat person but now I want to see the fruits of my labor. Tomorrow I will use the resources around me to start moving my body more.